My intimacy with Wolf Larsen increases -- if by intimacy may be denoted those relations which exist between master and man, or, better yet, between king and jester.I am to him no more than a toy, and he values me no more than a child values a toy.My function is to amuse, and so long as I amuse all goes well; but let him become bored, or let him have one of his black moods come upon him, and at once I am relegated from cabin table to galley, while, at the same time, I am fortunate to escape with my life and a whole body.
The loneliness of the man is slowly being borne in upon me.There is not a man aboard but hates or fears him, nor is there a man whom he does not despise.He seems consuming with the tremendous power that is in him and that seems never to have found adequate expression in works.He is as Lucifer would be, were that proud spirit banished to a society of soulless, Tomlinsonian ghosts.
This loneliness is bad enough in itself, but, to make it worse, he is oppressed by the primal melancholy of the race.Knowing him, review the old Scandinavian myths with clearer understanding.The white-skinned, fair-haired savages who created that terrible pantheon were of the same fibre as he.
The frivolity of the laughter-loving Latins is no part of him.When he laughs it is from a humor that is nothing else than ferocious.But he laughs rarely; he is too often sad.And it is a sadness as deep-reaching as the roots of the race.It is the race heritage, the sadness which has made the race sober-minded, clean-lived, and fanatically moral, and which, in this latter connection, has culminated among the English in the Reformed Church and Mrs.Grundy.
In point of fact, the chief vent to this primal melancholy has been religion in its more agonizing forms.But the compensations of such religion are denied Wolf Larsen.His brutal materialism will not permit it.So, when his blue moods come on, nothing remains for him but to be devilish.
Were he not so terrible a man, I could sometimes feel sorry for him, as instance three mornings ago, when I went into his state-room to fill his water-bottle and came unexpectedly upon him.He did not see me.His head was buried in his hands, and his shoulders were heaving convulsively as with sobs.He seemed torn by some mighty grief.As I softly withdrew Icould hear him groaning, "God! God! God!" Not that he was calling upon God; it was a mere expletive, but it came from his soul.
At dinner he asked the hunters for a remedy for headache, and by evening, strong man that he was, he was half-blind and reeling about the cabin.
"I've never been sick in my life, Hump," he said, as I guided him to his room."Nor did I ever have a headache except the time my head was healing after having been laid open for six inches by a capstan-bar."For three days this blinding headache lasted, and he suffered as wild animals suffer, as it seemed the way on ship to suffer, without plaint, without sympathy, utterly alone.
This morning, however, on entering his state-room to make the bed and put things in order, I found him well and hard at work.Table and bunk were littered with designs and calculations.On a large transparent sheet, compass and square in hand, he was copying what appeared to be a scale of some sort or other.
"Hello, Hump," he greeted me genially."I'm just finishing the finishing touches.Want to see it work?""But what is it?" I asked.
"A labor-saving device for mariners, navigation reduced to kindergarten simplicity," he answered gayly."From to-day a child will be able to navigate a ship.No more long-winded calculations.All you need is one star in the sky on a dirty night to know instantly where you are.Look.I place the transparent scale on this star-map, revolving the scale on the North Pole.
On the scale I've worked out the circles of altitude and the lines of bearing.
All I do is to put it on a star, revolve the scale till it is opposite those figures on the map underneath, and presto! there you are, the ship's precise location!"There was a ring of triumph in his voice, and his eyes, clear blue this morning as the sea, were sparkling with light.
"You must be well up in mathematics," I said."Where did you go to school?""Never saw the inside of one, worse luck," was the answer." had to dig it out for myself.""And why do you think I have made this thing?" he demanded, abruptly.
"Dreaming to leave footprints on the sands of time?" He laughed one of his horrible mocking laughs."Not at all.To get it patented, to make money from it, to revel in piggishness with all night in while other men do the work.That's my purpose.Also, I have enjoyed working it out.""The creative joy," I murmured.
"I guess that's what it ought to be called.Which is another way of expressing the joy of life in that it is alive, the triumph of movement over matter, of the quick over the dead, the pride of the yeast because it is yeast and crawls."I threw up my hands with helpless disapproval of his inveterate materialism and went about ****** the bed.He continued copying lines and figures upon the transparent scale.It was a task requiring the utmost nicety and precision, and I could not but admire the way he tempered his strength to the fineness and delicacy of the need.
When I had finished the bed, I caught myself looking at him in a fascinated sort of way.He was certainly a handsome man -- beautiful in the masculine sense.And again, with never-failing wonder, remarked the total lack of viciousness, or wickedness, or sinfulness, in his face.It was the face, I am convinced, of a man who did no wrong.And by this I do not wish to be misunderstood.What I mean is that it was the face of a man who either did nothing contrary to the dictates of his conscience, or who had no conscience.
I am inclined to the latter way of accounting for it.He was a magnificent atavism, a man so purely primitive that he was of the type that came into the world before the development of the moral nature.He was not immoral, but merely unmoral.
