But he thought it was very bad indeed, and his quarrel with Newman was that this unregulated epicure had a sadly insufficient perception of the bad.Babcock himself really knew as little about the bad, in any quarter of the world, as a nursing infant, his most vivid realization of evil had been the discovery that one of his college classmates, who was studying architecture in Paris had a love affair with a young woman who did not expect him to marry her.
Babcock had related this incident to Newman, and our hero had applied an epithet of an unflattering sort to the young girl.
The next day his companion asked him whether he was very sure he had used exactly the right word to characterize the young architect's mistress.Newman stared and laughed.
"There are a great many words to express that idea," he said;"you can take your choice!"
"Oh, I mean," said Babcock, "was she possibly not to be considered in a different light? Don't you think she really expected him to marry her?""I am sure I don't know," said Newman."Very likely she did;I have no doubt she is a grand woman." And he began to laugh again.
"I didn't mean that either," said Babcock, "I was only afraid that I might have seemed yesterday not to remember--not to consider; well, I think Iwill write to Percival about it."
And he had written to Percival (who answered him in a really impudent fashion), and he had reflected that it was somehow, raw and reckless in Newman to assume in that off-hand manner that the young woman in Paris might be "grand." The brevity of Newman's judgments very often shocked and discomposed him.
He had a way of damning people without farther appeal, or of pronouncing them capital company in the face of uncomfortable symptoms, which seemed unworthy of a man whose conscience had been properly cultivated.And yet poor Babcock liked him, and remembered that even if he was sometimes perplexing and painful, this was not a reason for giving him up.
Goethe recommended seeing human nature in the most various forms, and Mr.Babcock thought Goethe perfectly splendid.
He often tried, in odd half-hours of conversation to infuse into Newman a little of his own spiritual starch, but Newman's personal texture was too loose to admit of stiffening.
His mind could no more hold principles than a sieve can hold water.He admired principles extremely, and thought Babcock a mighty fine little fellow for having so many.
He accepted all that his high-strung companion offered him, and put them away in what he supposed to be a very safe place;but poor Babcock never afterwards recognized his gifts among the articles that Newman had in daily use.
They traveled together through Germany and into Switzerland, where for three or four weeks they trudged over passes and lounged upon blue lakes.
At last they crossed the Simplon and made their way to Venice.
Mr.Babcock had become gloomy and even a trifle irritable;he seemed moody, absent, preoccupied; he got his plans into a tangle, and talked one moment of doing one thing and the next of doing another.
Newman led his usual life, made acquaintances, took his ease in the galleries and churches, spent an unconscionable amount of time in strolling in the Piazza San Marco, bought a great many bad pictures, and for a fortnight enjoyed Venice grossly.One evening, coming back to his inn, he found Babcock waiting for him in the little garden beside it.
The young man walked up to him, looking very dismal, thrust out his hand, and said with solemnity that he was afraid they must part.Newman expressed his surprise and regret, and asked why a parting had became necessary.
"Don't be afraid I'm tired of you," he said.
"You are not tired of me?" demanded Babcock, fixing him with his clear gray eye.
"Why the deuce should I be? You are a very plucky fellow.
Besides, I don't grow tired of things."
"We don't understand each other," said the young minister.
"Don't I understand you?" cried Newman."Why, I hoped I did.
But what if I don't; where's the harm?"
"I don't understand YOU," said Babcock.And he sat down and rested his head on his hand, and looked up mournfully at his immeasurable friend.
"Oh Lord, I don't mind that!" cried Newman, with a laugh.
"But it's very distressing to me.It keeps me in a state of unrest.
It irritates me; I can't settle anything.I don't think it's good for me.""You worry too much; that's what's the matter with you," said Newman.
"Of course it must seem so to you.You think I take things too hard, and I think you take things too easily.
We can never agree."
"But we have agreed very well all along.""No, I haven't agreed," said Babcock, shaking his head.
"I am very uncomfortable.I ought to have separated from you a month ago.""Oh, horrors! I'll agree to anything!" cried Newman.
Mr.Babcock buried his head in both hands.At last looking up, "I don't think you appreciate my position," he said.
"I try to arrive at the truth about everything.And then you go too fast.For me, you are too passionate, too extravagant.
I feel as if I ought to go over all this ground we have traversed again, by myself, alone.I am afraid I have made a great many mistakes.""Oh, you needn't give so many reasons," said Newman.
"You are simply tired of my company.You have a good right to be.""No, no, I am not tired!" cried the pestered young divine.
"It is very wrong to be tired."
"I give it up!" laughed Newman."But of course it will never do to go on ****** mistakes.Go your way, by all means.
I shall miss you; but you have seen I make friends very easily.
You will be lonely, yourself; but drop me a line, when you feel like it, and I will wait for you anywhere.""I think I will go back to Milan.I am afraid I didn't do justice to Luini.""Poor Luini!" said Newman.
"I mean that I am afraid I overestimated him.I don't think that he is a painter of the first rank.""Luini?" Newman exclaimed; "why, he's enchanting--he's magnificent!
There is something in his genius that is like a beautiful woman.
It gives one the same feeling."
